就是爱逃避

我就是爱逃避

对于自己的感情..

我尝试着接受另一个世界...

我尝试着用玩乐麻醉这一切..

我尝试着忘掉这一切

我尝试着安慰我自己

我尝试着放弃...

我尝试着耳聋不去听那一切

但是..就是无法尝试着去面对你给我的种种问题

对于家事

我的眼瞎了一只

耳朵却也聋了两只

这些问题...就算我知道答案

也不说出

因为....我哑了

着火................>.<

家里的微波炉炸开了....不断地冒浓烟...不断地烧起来...

记得事发时...我还在微波炉隔壁喝着水...就突然刚启动的微波炉就炸开来烧了起来..

我第一反应是快点关电源..但是火太大..又怕它爆炸..就拿着水杯跑到客厅...

但我似乎还没反应过来...我跑到客厅后..就拿着水杯继续喝水...不知觉的走到电脑前..

准备坐下.......................XD

经过一番自我搏斗后....daddy赶回来了..

一切就这样过去................

要谢谢很疼lucky的邻居一家...他们看厨房没人...又冒那么大烟...他们一家大的小的拼命地喊daddy的名...XD

不管怎样..万分感激你们...>.<

没用的我...在那个时候只懂得害怕...担心...不争气的掉眼泪......T.T

《宫心计》

超级好好看^^

今天追了十集，该让电脑休息了XD

在这部戏里，虽然杨怡(金铃)是反派

但她好美~爱上她了XDhaha

姚金铃~美吧^^

i muz luv my jobXD

Now

i always tell myself,i must love my job

2day i have learnt the skill of Auto CAD n illustrator to do my workXD

it's damn difficult n complex......>.<

it makes my brain going to explode..really wakao!!>.<

anyway,i will put more effort on it

i believe myself.......!kakaka

i haven't seen 2012 before,but finally i saw 2day..

watching with colleague in the officeXDkaka

we was watching the movie while eating kacang..damn enjoy at tat time..haha

conclusion : although the work is difficult n toilsome,making me tension,

i will use to it n enjoy it!XD

i trust myself tat i can competent it soon!!

wahahaha

(mayb over confident XDhaha)

work?!!stress&^%*%@!^%&^*&

today is my 1st day being a OL

it's damn toilsome..

it's so stress...

it's so much work..

daddy said i m jz a white paper..

all need 2 start from zero

haizzzzzz..can i handle it?

i m so worried..

i wish 2 escape from it..

but i can't!!!

i have to surmount it

i must grow up...

no,is,my mental must grow up from now!

stress stress stress

wat's my mood now?

haizzzzzzz..

starting 2 work on tis wednesday..

starting 2 learn a lot of things on my work

starting 2 be a OL

would it be very boring?><

watever,my purpose is,

earn a lot of  $$money$$!!!!

jz let it be.......XD

happy-ing!!^^

ATTENTION PLZ

my exam jz remain 2 subjects lol!!!!

hurayyyyyyyyyyy~hahahaXD

erm...after finishing my exam,i'm gonna work n work..>.<

after spm i will b very very bz..bz 4 wat?!bz 4 enjoying my life..kaka

i m planning to go abroad...i'm wanna go singapore n hongkong!!!

my daddy has ady agreed 4 tat^^but.........nobody can accompany me...T.T

wuwuwuwuwuwu.......T.T

i m going on my slimming plan now..hahaXD

i mz slim down b4 CNY!!

coz i'm wanna wear a lot of beautiful new clothes~XD

kaka..all d best 4 me..>.<

wats tat?!!spm?!!

oh no!wats d day 2mrw?
wat?!spm?
SPM=saya pergi matiiiiiiiii


izzit?@.@
haizzzzzzzzz...all d best 2 all of us ba
gambateh 2 me
gambateh 2 u all

buzy & happy day@.@

6th november is a buzy day...

coz it was my deardear Tan baoyi's birthday^^

1st,i wanna thanks 2 muikee n lalat..they helped me a lot n a lot..

2nd,i wanna thanks 2 rabbit lee n ah she,they was bz 2 buy many things..

b4 that,i had beaten my brains 2 think how 2 give tanbaobao a surprise..

finally,we set d place at a hotel room..izit special?kakaka

we put a laptop at a table n kept playing a photo slide show video n we hide in the bathroom waiting 4 her coming..

tats damn hot n sultry in d bathroom...hahahaha

bcoz of too pressing,a lot of things haven prepared,made us running around in circles..

until 10++pm,all of us havent eaten yet..T.T

thx 4 baoyi n her dear howyong 4 treat us eat KFC...^^kakaka

we went mamadang yamcha then...happy-ing^^

almost 1++am...we went 2 klg mall to see racing-car..

n oso saw a racing driver testing his car at midnight@.@

it was so so so cool~

tats baobao n i^^damn cool d sport car~

REALIZE....@.@

i realized tat...

we juz lonely

we juz boring

we juz joking

i realized tat...
we are impossible

i realized tat..

i enjoyed when walking alone in a street

i realized tat..

i had used to it

i realized tat..
i had ady tired about love

but to me,tis is not my wish...

i always dream tat i can meet my dreamboat who really concerns with me,loves me, and dotes me much

i juz want a man who always lays me in his heart at first
haha~izit silly?!izit possible?!but i dun mind
i wont wake up from my dream
i will keep waiting and finding
hope god blessing me

BORING!!!!

damn damn damn boring 2day!

i hv tried my best to concentrate in my Chemistry...

but at d end..GIVE UP

bcoz of 2 boring...

taking up my phone..starting my phone's camera..

and then

TAKE PHOTO

wahahaha

one of d "result"

i m studying..kaka

*end*

stress.!!!!

SPM is juz around d corner...

damn stress now...

cant concentrate at all...

coz a lot of matter caused me in vexed..

d damn matter keeps disturbing my peace heart><

wat can i do now?!

wat medicine can let me more concentrate in studying?

who can help me............?T.T

^真的谢谢你们^luv u all

朋友
真的太爱你们了~
谢谢你们~我真的无法形容心中的感激...
谢谢你们，听我诉苦
谢谢你们，给于我安慰
谢谢你们，一直关心我
谢谢你们，一直陪着我
谢谢你们，黑暗中扶我一把
谢谢你们，在我累得倒下来时，你们什么都不说，只摸摸我的头静静陪着我...
你们对我的好，我会用我一生来回报....
有这样的你们，我就够了~
真的.........

终于....回到了一个人的世界

该说的...我都说完了..
你会恨我吗？你会怪我吗？你会伤心吗？你会无助吗？......


为什么到最后，所有的情况转了一圈...
当初是那样的我..变成这样的我...
这段日子...我以为我已经习惯了..我以为我已经领悟了...
不伤心..不流泪...但是心却淌着泪....
谢谢你
曾经，让我开心...让我幸福...让我成长...也让我伤心........................
下个月的今天....会不会变？....
一切过去了...这是我自己画上的句号...得我自己去承担它的后果...
我能胜任吗？.....

=毫无知觉的我=

打球时~不知怎么的..大家的心情都很糟糕...朋友为了一粒球而闹的不愉快...好讨厌看到这种情况....心情顿时变得更糟......

今天，你问我：who am i in ur heart?
我的答案：u r a diamond.
你是一颗散发着耀眼光芒的钻石...但那刺眼的光芒却让我睁不开眼睛...看不到你的美...只让我讨厌及一直闪避这光芒..另一边厢，这美丽又耀眼的光芒却吸引了许许多多的花蝴蝶争着去抢夺..男人都说，要搞定女人很简单，塞一粒钻石就行了~但..我永远反对...因为，戴着那钻石我需时时刻刻担心有人来打枪..时时刻刻提心吊胆..所以，我与其选择不戴......
我要的是安全感...你给不起...
我要的是简单的快乐...你也给不起...

刚跟了一群猪出去~真的很快乐...没烦恼...在他们面前...我无须伪装我自己...这样我就很开心~
很不幸的...看到了这个画面...我的心...毫无知觉的...不会波动..不会想哭...只是冷笑着...才发现，我对这一切已经没感觉...原来已经彻底麻痹了...《再见》，我也不想跟你说了..............

超级烦恼中...........

今天，在学校的心情超级郁闷....一直听着mp3~沉浸在悲伤的音乐中...陈宝义!你今天给我的烂提议是不可能的!!现在，未来都不会有结果...这事，就搁在一旁吧~哪怕真的有缘~我也害怕...
每时每刻望着那不会响起的两架电话...也不知道我这样有什么意义...==
我现在该想的是...我要如何面对一个人后的生活...我能不能应付自如？我会不会后悔？我会不会开心？
我是一个不能没有爱的...一个人后的我会多凄惨我不敢想...每天~看着你们一对两对甜蜜的打情骂俏~我都只好一个人默默的闪去一边....苦笑着.........突然觉得对我的人生好累...《缺爱的我要如何面对生活....?》同样的问题不断地重复着问自己...烦得自己只想逃避....看似空空的心，却什么也装不下~衰竭的心...等待着医生来拯救............

寂寞惨了的我

嗨...大家好呀~新开了blog...心里是有么多话想在这里呐喊出来...但是现在却什么也说不出写不出...试问，你了解你自己要什么吗？你知道怎么做是对还是错？你知道下一步你要往哪走？我的答案是...我不懂我要什么..我不知道怎样做是对的..我不知道我要怎么走..我对自己的路是多么的茫然..另一边的你呢？